Wow!! It has been a really, really, really LONG time since I have written on my blog!! I apologize for the long absence. Life, well, you know life. It gets hectic, it gets messy, it gets away from you.
I have been processing a lot. Especially about worship. I know, I know. I am a worship junkie. I get it. It’s always on my mind and always on my heart. Here lately, I have been feeling this pull, this tug to worship differently. By differently, I don’t mean church as normal, let’s go and see what God does-maybe-kind of worship. Something that literally goes into His inter chamber, where the Lord is His most vulnerable, and where I can be my most vulnerable. We sing songs about going higher, going deeper, of longing for more of Him, but do we really, do I really know how to do that? For years now, Psalms 27 has been my chapter. When my world was blowing up around me, burning from underneath me, I ran to Psalms 27. It assured me that God was on my side. I could trust Him. But more than anything, this:
One thing I ask from the Lord,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
and to seek him in his temple.
Music has been my bridge to this. I worship the Lord with my voice in song and it opens heaven to me. Because I want to go deeper, to know Him more intimately, I desire more of Him in every part of life. I also feel that the Lord wants to do this for the church as a whole but in a way that looks vastly different than our traditional ho-hum-this-is-just-how-we-do-it-church-service. He is calling us into our worship services, in every area, with no agenda. None whatsoever. Just to be open to HIM. The only expectation we have is to encounter Him. I’m willing. I’m ready to go deeper, to be one of His closest confidants and friends. I’m ready to learn what it really means to be His, to be His daughter. Are you?